Dub FX Love Me or Not!
I have had an extremely eventful weekend and ended up in hospital in the short stay ward as the stress of everything got to me and I self harmed.
I got sent to hospital for a few days and had to see a psychotherapist, fortunately I am sane and was allowed home, they said that the extreme stress I was under was the cause, my wounds are superficial although multiple on my left arm, both legs and chest the doctor said my behaviour was perfectly understandable under the circumstances although hearing that does not make it any clearer to me although I don’t feel as crazy as I did do before seeing him.
I have follow up appointments, thankfully and relationship counselling this week.
I have a lot to write about and am not sure if I will publish it all or not.
I am going to continue as normal from today onwards.
I have an elastic band around my arm so I can ping it if it all gets to much as silly as it sounds it works, if any one out there reading this feels like hurting themselves I urge you to first call the samaritans as harming your self does not only hurt you but every one around you, if only I had thought of that instead of selfishly just wanting to feel something other than my own emotional pain.
The samaritans have been extremely helpful and are there to listen not to judge you.
You can phone them 24 hours a day on.
UK: 08457 90 90 90
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