Mother Earth Dancing - Betty Newman-Maguire


© Stuart Smith 2013


Goodbye nightmares hello life!

The Nightmare

So I switch on the computer to find that the ex not only continues to terrorise me but is still in communication with her affair guy, yes she was daft enough to store it in a folder with my name on it, I didn’t go seeking it was simply open and on screen when I awoke the PC after a nightmare at about 3am this morning.

Upon speaking to her of course she denied it, please Shell be true to your self.

I feel relief although somewhat lied to, spirit has been screaming at me for months during my sleep, alarm bells.

At least now I can start the process of me keeping our home with the children and she can move out as I am unable to be any where near her and don’t think it is right that loose my home due to this, the levels of deceit that she implores even shocks me beyond all reality.

I’m in love with a very special woman and finally this situation comes to a conclusion and I can now finish the hard work I have been doing to heal my self with the help of many friends, for this I am eternally grateful, I just wish the children hadn’t suffered so much due to this.

Thank you Shell for all the lessons that you have given me, thank you for the strength I now possess, I wish you happiness and loving kindness, may you find the inner peace you so rightly deserve.

Now I smile as tonight I will sleep knowing that the nightmares will finally go away and I will peacefully transition to where my heart calls me.

Blessings, may God and the holy spirit guide me on my path so that I am true to myself, true to others and always walk my path my calling, that of healing, raising consciousness, vibration and ascension.
May I truly forgive both the antagonists and myself.

Namaste Stu.

For Millennia I’ve loved you

Love Love Love
When I am near you, I imagine feeling your breath, gently on my neck.
Kisses flow energy down my spine, I look into your eyes, all is fine.
I am yours and you are mine, forever till the end of time.
Eternally I’m yours, a true love that will endure.

Stars shine deep within your soul, remembrance of a never ending love.
A love so bright and blinding, it can only be felt, as words can not describe it.
Take my hand, walk with me, for our love is timeless.
I wait for thee most precious angel, for our time has come.

Wings sprout from our backs, we fly high, into the clouds.
Without a sound, bodies become one, skin touches, souls are joined.
Many lives have I loved you, I know that your are scared, forever I will wait, just to hold your hands.
Millennia pass, days become weeks, weeks become, years, years become centuries.

Yet I don’t cry tears of missing you, because I know someday, that we will be together once again.
My heart beats only for you, for I am still in love with you, and I know that you are in love with me.
I know this as I feel it, even when your’e not around.
I can hear it in the wind, I love you is its sound.

My heart was locked, not open, there was not even a key.
For you my love, my heart unlocked itself, as it was meant to be.
I open for you butterfly, you’ve flown into my dreams.
Your’e the last thing I think of at night, true love, must be, it seems.

Now we have grown, life has mends, lets not play more pretend.
For we like seeds, will blossom, and never be departed.
I promise that you’ll never, from me, be broken hearted.
To know you is to love you, from the moment we first met.

To kiss and hold you would be, all my dreams come true.
Be my wife, my lover, my friend, lets not hide in fear.
True love holds no bounds, and always perceivers.
So hear my heavenly blessings, for a brand new start.

Star child play with laughter, twin girls, born of love.
Our seeds, most elemental, a joining, moon and sun.
Till the morning, I do hold you, a gentle morning kiss.
It’s these memories, moments, most of all I miss.

Until we are together, I simply sit and wait.
I not need, but do hunger, for love to light the way.
As I caress your gentle face, I know you understand.
That you are my woman, as I am your man.

When we join together, once again and we are one.
United we are stronger, but divided we won’t fall.
There is no risk in loving you, none what so ever, at all.
If you hear me calling, shining you with light.

Then please let me love you, and hold you every night.
For now we count our blessings, for struggles that have passed.
We are ready for each other, as a new day dawns.
Together now forever, our love can be reborn.

By Stuart Smith (© 2013)


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Rest in peace sweet angel

Rest in peace sweet angel

Rest in peace sweet angel, may your journey be most gracious.
Spread your wings, soar above the clouds, to many a destination.
Travel the cosmos, explore all of creation.
I will never forget thee, always in my heart.
Despite lack of corporeal, we will never be apart.
I spend this day most grateful, for the souls that I did start.
For life is but creation, and lessons must be larded.
And when I think of thee, dancing in the gardens.
Brothers and sisters by your side, not one of them discarded.
I know that you’ll be free, a freedom to explore.
The infinite creation of the universe and more.
Gentle with this knowing, I wipe away my tears.
having you look down on me helps ease away my fears.

Foundation of self; Getting over the Despair of Existance.

Why we’re here is something that human beings answer by either using imagination, or by turning to what we can prove.  The idea that there was / is a being out there that created existence  is only cut short when you look through the eyes of science, the eyes of reality. Understanding that in reality everything we know as a species has happened through some hysterically deranged chance that life happened on a lukewarm rock floating in space orbiting a spectral class G2 star. We are a byproduct of millions of years of mutations that by chance let our species become top dog on this rock.

Mother Nature(a name given to personify the life that happened, to help buffer reality) crafted a couple things up to help us cope with the many problems we get ourselves into, and help us come together as a species to survive; consciousness, and intelligence.  Two things used everyday, but rarely kept in mind.

We are here, and we exist simply because of chance. Praise chance by going to the casinos once in a while. It’s more honorable a religion than praising any number of vengeful, and yet contradictory loving gods every Sunday by reciting a hollow prayer in a “house of God.”


My heart is still aching

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Guitar chords G / G major 7th / D / D major 7th / C / D

G                            GMJ7      D                   DMJ7
My heart is still aching, I don’t know what to write.
C                                D
Does it still exist? Is there anything left inside?
G                     GMJ7        D                       DMJ7
I can’t feel it beating, it used to beat like a drum.
C                                    D                          
All I can say is now, it doesn’t want to run.

Bedroom antics may have been the cause, I was simply far too blind.
To notice you slip away, was you only trying to hide?
But now our love is stronger, it’s all up to me they say.
To forgive you and my self, but I’m stuck in yesterday.

I know I must have hurt you, for you to do the things you’ve done.
But instead of holding you real close, I simply let you run.
The love I feel for you, is something I can’t hide.
It’s high up above the clouds, where angels reside.

Now that we are parted, although only for a while.
Hearing you when you call me, always makes me smile.
Forgiveness is in my soul, but torments in my mind.
How do I forgive you darling, when there’s torture in my eyes.

The only thing that keeps me going, is you and the kids.
I’m going to pin that thought promptly, to the back of my eye lids.
I’ve jump started my heart again, solely for you.
But please don’t ever shake it, coz it’s only held with glue.

I know that you can feel me, from across the shores.
When I wake up in the mornings, it is you that I adore.
I feel our love is beautiful, like a flower in full bloom.
Worry not my darling, I’ll be coming home real soon.

I’ll be coming home real soon, to oo ooo sooth you.

By Stuart Otway-Smith Registered & Protected

I miss you all my love, kiss our children for me and hug baby.


Until you learn to heal the wounds of your past, you will continue to bleed into the future.

Nas & Damian Marley – Count your blessings

Until you learn to heal the wounds of your past, you will continue to bleed into the future.

Iyanla Vanzant


God bless you, your messages help to guide me though my many days of darkness.